The whirlpool

Why do I do this to myself?

I took one quick look at her profile and now I'm having cold sweats and want to off myself. She's getting skinny (frankly, I think she looks ill), she's having fun, everything is going her way. I had such a surge of HATE flow through me, it was scary.

I then went through my FB page and deleted all the photos of her I could. It was like setting myself on fire. There is still such an abundance of hurt for me in this.